Propelled by the momentum of discarding old, unnecessary materials at work and organizing what remains, I made a major leap forward this weekend – I attacked (and conquered) the angst-evoking clutter corner in my kitchen! Celebrate with me! I was so ashamed of the piles of 3-ring binders, year-old children’s artistic masterpieces, choir rehearsal lyric sheets, Christmas photo cards, expired coupons that I’d had every good intention of using, et cetera…but I had also become complacent about it – can you relate? I’d cook, load the dishwasher, disinfect my countertops, and sweep the floor, but that menacing corner always lurked just beyond the grasp of my ever-elusive ideal of being “finally organized.”
Well, this weekend, I made a decision to just do it – no matter how tired or disheartened I felt (and believe me, I felt both!). I even rediscovered (and subsequently tossed out – devoid of my usual emotional attachment) a boarding pass from a summer 2008 plane trip…don’t ask – of course I had no clue it was there, so I won’t miss it. I wasn’t even saving it for sentimental reasons; it had just accumulated, like most of the other bits and pieces straining my poor, overburdened little side table. And you know what? I felt better when I was done – because the seemingly overwhelming task that had loomed overhead for far too long had been completed…at last. After that, I pressed on toward the office – another potential abyss of clutter pandemonium (to which I was a chief contributor). With a furrowed and resolute brow, I declared war on the army of boxes that had assembled in the middle of my floor; I think I won the battle. Some contents were discarded; the contents of other boxes were consolidated. And the Earth did not stop rotating or revolving because I threw some stuff away – what a relief!
Before I could ever change my external environment, I had to change my mind – and that was preceded by allowing God to change my heart. It was (and continues to be!) a process…one that took (and is still taking!) time and patience. And growth and maturity. And a commitment to change. We don’t like to admit that “our stuff ain’t working,” but God is gentle, patient, kind, and loving as He guides us into what we deem to be new territory. So I guess my Pastor’s sermon series on “Allowing God to Do a New Thing” is really taking root…and bearing fruit. I am grateful. 🙂
“For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
But he that lacketh these things is blind, and cannot see afar off, and hath forgotten that he was purged from his old sins.”
(II Peter 1:8-9)
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